Reflections & Gratitude
On this day after my birthday and Christmas, I'm reflecting and noticing a peacefulness that isn't familiar. I noticed it all throughout the past two days as I engaged in the family traditions that have evolved over the years. I'm grateful for the serene feelings and I'm grateful that practicing mindfulness has now become a more natural way of being for me, for if I weren't, I might have trudged through the holiday with feelings of obligation and longing.
This picture was taken yesterday and I wonder how it is I've shrunk so much! I'm dumfounded by the size of my children! The start of 2015 marks ten years I've been a single mom and as I look at my boys, I'm not sure how we've all survived, much less thrived. Somehow, I accomplished sprouting these giants from watering and feeding small seedlings. This feat did not happen without enormous support and a large watering can! I wonder now what and where I would have pictured us had I created a vision ten years ago? There were many, many times I didn't know how I, much less we, would endure, yet here we stand, ten years later, with smiles and laughter. I am heartbreakingly grateful for my boys.
To end 2014 I'd like to share some of my most grateful moments of this holiday:
I'm grateful for seeing the excitement my boys have in choosing and giving gifts, the kind of excitement that you can't contain and so you beg the recipient to open their gift early. I'm grateful for the birthday banana cupcakes my mom made on Christmas Day, they were better than Sara Lee! I'm grateful for all the Buddhas I received this year; reinforcement and support of mindfulness. I'm grateful for the warm weather and long early morning runs! I'm grateful for having Christmas/birthday dinner with my best friend at a Chinese restaurant! I'm grateful for the courage to experiment with eating meat again after 13 years without (a whole world of choices opens up on every menu!) I'm grateful for the health and stamina of my parents and their spouses. I'm grateful my children have such wonderful grandparents. I'm grateful for serendipity, sometimes it's only a change of time. I'm grateful for the opportunity to do one small random act of kindness to a person in need on Christmas Day. I'm grateful for the people that trust me with their goals and aspirations, they continually teach and guide me as they allow me the honor of guiding them. I'm grateful for all of the amazing people that sent me birthday wishes via text, phone, Facebook, and email; I am truly honored to be remembered. And I am eternally grateful for finding peace within myself; not always easy but with practice, more accessible.
Lastly, here's the fortune from my Christmas dinner fortune cookie; food for thought:
"Human Evolution: Wider Freeways, But Narrower Viewpoints"
Aloha nui loa (much aloha!) to all of you! And Hau'oli La Hanau to Lori!
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