How does one remain engaged and energized while facing unpredictable health challenges? This is my personal endeavor.
There are a lot of people facing chronic physical, emotional or mental roadblocks on a daily basis. Roadblocks that aren't neatly explained by medicine and have no concrete solution. These muddy conditions can cause one to feel isolated, misunderstood, and fearful. Our search for clarity mingles with hope. We visit experts to find relief. Without answers, some of us wind up frustrated. We eventually start each day with trepidation rather than enthusiasm; dread rather than hope.
Where is the silver lining? Does the fear of waking to uncertainty become a self-fulfilling prophecy? What can we call upon to maintain our optimism while experiencing a diminished sense of ourselves?
What if resisting reality is the cause of our languishing? Our desire for something to be other than it is that brings suffering? "If only I had ..." or "If if only I wouldn't have ..." or "If only I weren't..." We can go on forever longing for our circumstances to be different. Where does rumination get us?
Most of us exploring our human frailty on a daily basis walked into it slowly, and with confusion. We may have denied, rationalized, and minimized for as long as possible. We might have tried with all our might to fake it, but that becomes exhausting. Then, when our plight becomes too frequent to dismiss, we talk about it. How do we explain something intangible? Something has to give.
As a coach and trainer, I feel responsible for showing up with the vigor and clarity the people in my life anticipate. I have also become comfortably independent. Admitting my invincibility and interdependence has been humbling. And, I recognize that while feeling broken and vulnerable due to misunderstood symptoms, numerous tests, and speculations, those that support and care about me are also vulnerable. Connecting with another makes each of us vulnerable — with human beings, there are no guarantees. People and the genuine care inherent within each of us are my silver lining.
As I write this, I see broken bridges mended, rebuilt stronger than before. I see new opportunities to connect with others; an unforeseen empathy is evolving from my experiences. I have a chance to practice and master new tools — gifts to share with those whom my words resonate.
In embracing reality, I'm ready to accept my ever changing circumstances, forge ahead in search of answers, keep an open mind, take responsibility for and act on what I can do, practice patience, share what I learn with others, and cherish those that hold my hand along the way.
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